Made It Through
So I made it through Saturday. It went pretty well and I remained emotionally unattached yet very nice to our guest. Won't have to deal with that until next year!
Okay. I am doing some spiritual housecleaning. The hubby has been thinking about making sure he really schedules his prayer time and I agree with him. I need to do the same for me too. We made the decision to homeschool all but the seventh grader and the two high school girls. Which means I will be teaching a sixth grader, fourth grader, third grader and first grader. Plus I will have a three year old and a one year old. I am a little scared about this big responsibility. I will be talking it out here because again, I don't feel like I can talk to anyone. I tried talking to the hubby about it today, but I just got a lecture about how scary things can be good and not talk to myself in a negative way about it, blah, blah, blah. I just wanted to vent because again, I am the one taking on a huge responsibility. Once again, it is my life that will change. It is like when we have a new baby, his life does not change. But mine has changed with each child. I have had to sacrifice a lot more than him, but I have to listen all the time about how he doesn't have time to do things.
And he gets the awards. I get nada as a stay at home, give up everything mom. I love my family and I adore my children. Don't get me wrong. I am so glad that I have the opportunity to stay home and take care of them. I get to watch everything and just love them like crazy and no award in the world would make up for that.
I just don't feel like I have any one to talk to about things. Like this new venture into homeschooling. I would love to be able to talk to my husband about it and just have him support me and uplift me without telling me what I am doing wrong. He's not a bad person, he just doesn't know how to communicate. Or maybe really listen. That is why my soul longs for a motherly type person in my life. Someone to tell me how much I can do this, tell me about my strengths, tell me it is okay to be scared and not give me a lecture about being scared.
I am hoping that just writing this for myself will help me. Maybe I will try and concentrate on the Blessed Mother more for guidance.
Anyway, I am excited about homeschooling and I think the kids are gonna love it too. I have a lot to do this week to get ready for schooling. Things to be ordered and stuff like that. Plus I have to get ready for the teen conference in Steubenville that I am chaperoning a group of girls for. I am excited about that. Catholic teens have great spirit when they are together. It is inspirational.
Good night to all out there. Busy day tomorrow. God bless.
Okay. I am doing some spiritual housecleaning. The hubby has been thinking about making sure he really schedules his prayer time and I agree with him. I need to do the same for me too. We made the decision to homeschool all but the seventh grader and the two high school girls. Which means I will be teaching a sixth grader, fourth grader, third grader and first grader. Plus I will have a three year old and a one year old. I am a little scared about this big responsibility. I will be talking it out here because again, I don't feel like I can talk to anyone. I tried talking to the hubby about it today, but I just got a lecture about how scary things can be good and not talk to myself in a negative way about it, blah, blah, blah. I just wanted to vent because again, I am the one taking on a huge responsibility. Once again, it is my life that will change. It is like when we have a new baby, his life does not change. But mine has changed with each child. I have had to sacrifice a lot more than him, but I have to listen all the time about how he doesn't have time to do things.
And he gets the awards. I get nada as a stay at home, give up everything mom. I love my family and I adore my children. Don't get me wrong. I am so glad that I have the opportunity to stay home and take care of them. I get to watch everything and just love them like crazy and no award in the world would make up for that.
I just don't feel like I have any one to talk to about things. Like this new venture into homeschooling. I would love to be able to talk to my husband about it and just have him support me and uplift me without telling me what I am doing wrong. He's not a bad person, he just doesn't know how to communicate. Or maybe really listen. That is why my soul longs for a motherly type person in my life. Someone to tell me how much I can do this, tell me about my strengths, tell me it is okay to be scared and not give me a lecture about being scared.
I am hoping that just writing this for myself will help me. Maybe I will try and concentrate on the Blessed Mother more for guidance.
Anyway, I am excited about homeschooling and I think the kids are gonna love it too. I have a lot to do this week to get ready for schooling. Things to be ordered and stuff like that. Plus I have to get ready for the teen conference in Steubenville that I am chaperoning a group of girls for. I am excited about that. Catholic teens have great spirit when they are together. It is inspirational.
Good night to all out there. Busy day tomorrow. God bless.
posted by Michelle @ 12:16 AM
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